Saturday, August 25, 2012

Is that a gun?

My latest Battlecruiser was met with the question "What is it?" I can see how somebody would think its a gun, because there is no context of size. But if you have to ask what it is, I am not doing a very good job, am I?

Friday, August 24, 2012

Let's try that again.

I reworked the shuttle from yesterday. The big exhausts were bugging me.

Thursday, August 23, 2012

And for my next trick...

Capital! (Ship, that is)

I am trying to develop a new style that looks purposely messy, yet artsy/conceptish. I don't know if I am pulling it off, but I like the way this looks. 

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Changing Gears

Well, I haven't moved forward as I had planned. I haven't really put any effort into this endeavor for quite a while now. I recently started doodling machines out of nowhere. Nothing fancy, just extremely rough sketches of shapes. My problem is that I never move past this phase. I never develop any of these ideas into anything.

Most of these were done while I was sitting in a meeting bored at work.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Like a child with crayons....

I strive to have a finished product that looks like what Jeff Zugale calls "Just a sketch with problems".
Check it out:
Jeff Zugale

Thursday, June 14, 2012

In the pipe 5 by 5....where's the damned beacon?

Man, I have been in a funk all week. I haven't drawn anything until today. I did just find my favorite pen today, so maybe that was it. None of those other pens had any images in them.
Actually, I know exactly what happened: Performance Anxiety. I can be going right along and creating new things with ease and the moment somebody says, "I want you to do this" I shut down. I'm not blaming anybody but myself. It is an internal malfunction that I am well aware of. This is why I will probably never have a job that involves creative energy. Any expectations what-so-ever just break me.
But I must press on.

These are just quick half-baked ideas. I'm letting them come, scribbling them down and putting them away. Later I will go back and see which have merit, if any.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Face the Nation

I think this might be the face of my "People" on planet weird.

The elephant seal in the room....

Our naturalist has found himself on the beach in my strange world. I actually have a plan and direction for all of this apparently perverse Fauna and Flora. No, really.

Monday, June 4, 2012


Being the Lazy Bum that I am, I retooled one of my new pieces for the Nvidia contest that I entered.

What is wrong with this guy?

My wife recently told me that my subject matter raises questions as to my mental state. People who do not know me look at what I have drawn and ask questions about my disposition, my ethics, my needs. So I got to thinking about all of that and I wonder, what am I trying to say? The only answer I have come up with is, Nothing. I have nothing to say, no message to convey. I sit down with a pen and I let the images trapped within free themselves. I never know what I am going to draw until I draw it. I did notice that I do get hooked on certain shapes for a period of time. I am currently in my vagina phase apparently, but does this really say anything about my mind? It must, in some way right? Since I let my subconscious determine my subject matter, I must be abstracting my internal dialogue, right? But I don't feel particularly sexually frustrated, so what is it? For the most part, when I come up with a questionable image I am usually going for the "eeew" factor, anyway. So I guess it's working. In the case of the "Vagina Monsters" I was looking for something completely different, yet still believably organic. Something that would evoke a sense of ickyness, like insect faces do to me, while at the same time remaining completely realistic and plausible. So does that say that vaginas are the ickiest thing that my mind can imagine? I don't think so. I think that judging from the response that they got, it says a lot about the minds and attitudes of my audience, which is good. I think as an artist (I can't believe that I just used that term to describe myself), that is what I want to do. I want my art to cause my viewers to reflect on their internal dialogue and be slightly repulsed by what it said. Is that wrong?

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Stop and smell

More Alien lifeforms from the planet Vagina. I think i could do a whole bestiary of lifeforms based on this design philosophy, but would that be interesting or would it get boring?


Did some doodling today, trying to work out the details of an alien mouth. Here is the result.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Start over from the middle.

Hi! Have a seat, make yourself comfortable. You need anything? No, you're good? Good. Now, where to begin? When I was a kid, I liked to draw. I drew a lot. Mostly monsters, but a lot of monsters. I drew all the way up until my late 20's and then I stopped. I had always felt that my art came from a place of emptiness and dispair. Having grown up in the most negative and discouraging family I have ever met in my whole united states life, I had plenty of that in store. But Then I met the woman who would become my wife and, well she turned the light on in the darkness. My pen had run dry. Oh, I doodled here and there, but I never progressed. Then my son was born and suddenly I needed to make more money so I went back to school at 30. That was a great experience and it reawakened my sleeping tooth what likes to draw. I have a tooth what likes beer too, but that's for the other blog.

So I finished school and got a job doing pre-press work for a packaging company. I made more money than ever in my life and I was doing artsy things in my time off. But then I was hit with the slow moving glacier that grinds all ambition and willpower into powder: World of Warcraft. I stopped creating to immerse myself in a world created by others....for 5 years....every spare moment. I even played at work. I was sick, you see.....

But Alas, all good (and bad) things must come to an end. So, here I am now WoW free and I want to DRAW. But I wasted so much time and never developed my talents, can I start over? No, that's hard at 41. But I can start in the middle where I left off. Hopefully this blog will document the further development of my skill.

I recently found a folder of old sketches that was squirreled away on a book shelf. Looking at them for the first time in years was like looking at someone else's work. Did I draw these? Some were from the 80's and others more recent. They aren't real good, but they aren't real bad either. It seems like a good place to start. So I brought a couple into Illustrator and tinkered with them, cleaned them up, added color and shading. All things that I have always been bad at. But the few pieces that I have resurrected showed promise. They all need work, but I am pleased with the initial results of this awakening.

I will continue to post new stuff as it is born and old stuff as I find it. If you like what you see, let me know! If you don't like what you see, let me know!